its going to be close to a month since i came back to India, and something i noticed is that i have been sleeping for longer time periods than i usually do. but strangely or funnily whichever way you put it, i find some of the people around me also doing something similar. at least i feel my case is restricted to sleeping at home, sleeping over a post draft in this blog and may be a few more.
people sleeping over emails, over work, over responsibilities. may be i am just a little paranoid with all this, since this is happening more in the cases that involve me. but still it seems complacency is common with respect to few years back… to top it of complaining seems to be the norm.
everyone complaining about everyone and everything around.
its the same old place and city but all seems new
its been a 4 days of waiting for the net connection at home, and the recent rains did not help. i am online now and leaving out a post in draft state this will be a the first post after coming back home. this post sounds familiar one of the first posts, where i blogged about having got a broadband connection for the first time, 256bkps unlimited
a big decision day is coming up this monday, something that will have some amount of changes coming my way. details on monday. till then i will try to get the draft published once the content is put in place.
We are, if anything, creatures of habit - Drawn to the safety and comfort of the familiar.
But what happens when the familiar becomes unsafe? When the fear that we have desperately been trying to avoid finds us where we live. — Heroes S01E09
its a known fact that one is close to 6000 km away from home. the arrival here was with the knowledge that one is going to stay away from home for a certain duration.
with all this as a known, why is it that there is still this feeling of making this place like home? so as to avoid the level of distance that is actually physically there?
Why expect to be home when you are not home?
I always try to stick to
“i hate the feeling of being at home, when i am travelling or away from home”.
“yeh joh des hai” from swades becomes the anthem, all the words from the song seem to relate and feel more meaningful.
somehow married Indian men become so heavily dependent on their wife, that they forget how to live a basic life for survival. i think the survival instinct is lost or may be they have become slaves, even though considering that they might be treating their other half like one.
Ashutosh Gowariker could not have gotten ‘the village elders’ and mohan’s talk about the cultural differences more spot on, dialogues from the movie seem to be allusively used in many instances.
i was planning to title this as ‘home’ but somehow decided not to since i value the word, and did not want to waste the title for this.
the road to understanding that home is some distance away might be long, but its more about how fast you want to travel it and understand it that seems to be a bigger question.
in a foreign place where everything is organized, routine and predictable. surprises are limited and randomness kept to the bare minimum.
cricket, bollywood, tollywood help.
laughing out at slapstick comedies. unconnected, random, filthy and cheap jokes.
seeing life getting changed in a moments notice in movies. shaving blades splitting bullets into 2 and thereby helping in taking out 2 of villain’s countless sidekicks.
edge of the seat finishes in matches, where the pendulum swings just as the dice rolls on, to play its own game.
Virtue and life needs some cheaper thrills.
the thing .. thinking about .. how long i want to continue .. work .. wat options …
what if i am … crazy … who cannot be handled … its all hormones thts all
… need to slow down things sometimes .. and keep the over excitation to the right moments
sometimes u think, a solution is found in a particular way, but mostly it turns out, the solution was the other one u did not take
Why am I unhappy? The question carries within it the virus that will destroy everything. If we ask that question, it means we want to find out what makes us happy. If what makes us happy is different from what we have now, then we must either change once and for all or stay as we are, feeling even more unhappy. - Paulo Coelho
random excerpts from me, my friends far and distant geographically, general stuff. for all the activity missing form this blog, i have some news, pictures and experience updates coming soon. how soon is again something i am not sure about.
